chapter 43~ a pathetic dinner

I guess when u see a blog posted by me in english, i think u can give a a call and comfort me.. because i am really not in the mood for CHINESE..

i tthought today was the perfect day for me .. i really thought so.. but that was before dinner.. i went out this morning for family day.. nothing wrong happened.. it was normal..after that it started raining .. but no worries.. no effect on me ... i went out with joyci(sis) to the interchange..we bought some stuff.. vcd for my mum .. strawberries for joyci .. tat was her fave.. then we walked around to enquire on my dad's stuff.. i bought some stickers for my boys.. then it was all .. so perfect... no quarells.. i mean quarell was a usual scene when me and my sis was put together.. but .. today was so perfect.. so .. so peaceful.. in the morning.. i remembered that my dad wants to try the chessy pizza.. so i told my mum not to cook.. and i treat them to the pizza.. they were happy.. it was the pizza that make my day so awful.. i am now.. crying while typin.. cannot believed it right.. the normal dixie .. the happy and cheerful dixie..honestly i am very vulenrable wwhen it comes to family quarells..i ordered the chessy pizza meal.. it comes with the pizza ..4 spicpy drumlets.. and 12 stary munchies.. joyci told me she wanted the 4 drumlets.. though she said she might not want so much but since it was really nice and i jus got my so called officially pay..i thought i would let everyone has a happy dinner.. so i ordered another 10 drumlets.. since my dad hasnt try before.. so i wanted him to have a try.. instead jus having my sis gulped down the 4 drumlets.. and most imptly .. i get to eat.. my mum can eat.. every one can try.. cos its really nice.. i have everyone's heart in mind.. i wanted all of us to enjoy this dinner... or today.. jus like i do.. but.. the most saddeszt thing happen.. my dad started screaming at me for ordering the drumlets.. he say.. its not as if my mum cant make them .. why buy so many extras.. i .. i mean.. i understand wat he means.. but he came screamming at me.. that is wat ii cant take it.. if he had talked to me nicely.. everything would be fine..he screamed at me.. and thru my strong and cannot lose character.. he crashed and big mmouth fight .. i cried in the end.. not tat i lost.. but the thought that when i realy want every one to enjoy why must he be so bad to destroy my day.. why.. its is jus drumlets.. jus little drumlets.. its the first time i ordered the drumlets .. i jus wan him to try them and have a happy dinner.. but why must he do this to me.. why must he destroy my day.. its a sunday.. every sunday is normally my best day,.. cos its a day.. when everyone is home.. a day when the 4 of us is at home.. why cant we jus have a happy dinner.. why is it so difficult.. mus we really have dinner seperately.. is this the way he really wan .. no doubts.. i am still crying now..

第四十一章~国庆日前夕

今天是国庆日前夕。。 通常这个日子对我不会有太大的影响。。 心情的起伏也不会因为这个日子而受到影响。。 在我小学的时候，或许我会持有爱国的热忱。。 中学时，或许不那么重。。 初院时，我甚至觉得爱国很土。。 拿起国旗挥着。。 很无聊。。 但是今天我。。 我。。 不得不承认。我感动了。。 我甚至掉下了眼泪！我看着我校的男生。。 高兴的。。 骄傲的。。 兴奋的。。 唱着爱国歌曲。。 不怕人嘲笑的跳着去年芮恩与TAUFIK的那首歌。。 挥着国旗。。 我想起我以前的热忱。。 以前有多爱国。。 但是我却随着时间的流逝。。 慢慢的。。 放弃，我深为新加坡人的机会。。 我现在好想好想告诉所有的人。我是新加坡人。。 一个以新加坡所有东西为傲的人。。 我从来不会专心看那些歌曲的歌词。。 但是因为今天我陪着他们一起唱。。 我专心了。。 我。。 感动了。。 我！！ 我好狠以前的自己！！ happy birthday singapore..

说会正题！！　今天是非常superband 的大决赛！我支持juz b！　但是他们已经出局了！　我支持soul ，　但是我更希望迷路兵回赢．．　我不知道有多少人和我一样，看到soul 好像看到５５６６，ｋ　ｏｎｅ　一样。。　他们似乎没有很特别。。　但是迷路兵就不一样了。。　他们很特别。。　在国外没有一个组合和他们一样。。　这让我很喜欢。。真的。。　但是我不舍得！！　我。。　我还蛮想ｓｏｕｌ，但是如果真的要站在国际的舞台上。。　那我希望是迷路兵。。反正不管是谁，我都会支持他们的！！！