chapter 43~ a pathetic dinner

I guess when u see a blog posted by me in english, i think u can give a a call and comfort me.. because i am really not in the mood for CHINESE..

i tthought today was the perfect day for me .. i really thought so.. but that was before dinner.. i went out this morning for family day.. nothing wrong happened.. it was normal..after that it started raining .. but no worries.. no effect on me ... i went out with joyci(sis) to the interchange..we bought some stuff.. vcd for my mum .. strawberries for joyci .. tat was her fave.. then we walked around to enquire on my dad's stuff.. i bought some stickers for my boys.. then it was all .. so perfect... no quarells.. i mean quarell was a usual scene when me and my sis was put together.. but .. today was so perfect.. so .. so peaceful.. in the morning.. i remembered that my dad wants to try the chessy pizza.. so i told my mum not to cook.. and i treat them to the pizza.. they were happy.. it was the pizza that make my day so awful.. i am now.. crying while typin.. cannot believed it right.. the normal dixie .. the happy and cheerful dixie..honestly i am very vulenrable wwhen it comes to family quarells..i ordered the chessy pizza meal.. it comes with the pizza ..4 spicpy drumlets.. and 12 stary munchies.. joyci told me she wanted the 4 drumlets.. though she said she might not want so much but since it was really nice and i jus got my so called officially pay..i thought i would let everyone has a happy dinner.. so i ordered another 10 drumlets.. since my dad hasnt try before.. so i wanted him to have a try.. instead jus having my sis gulped down the 4 drumlets.. and most imptly .. i get to eat.. my mum can eat.. every one can try.. cos its really nice.. i have everyone's heart in mind.. i wanted all of us to enjoy this dinner... or today.. jus like i do.. but.. the most saddeszt thing happen.. my dad started screaming at me for ordering the drumlets.. he say.. its not as if my mum cant make them .. why buy so many extras.. i .. i mean.. i understand wat he means.. but he came screamming at me.. that is wat ii cant take it.. if he had talked to me nicely.. everything would be fine..he screamed at me.. and thru my strong and cannot lose character.. he crashed and big mmouth fight .. i cried in the end.. not tat i lost.. but the thought that when i realy want every one to enjoy why must he be so bad to destroy my day.. why.. its is jus drumlets.. jus little drumlets.. its the first time i ordered the drumlets .. i jus wan him to try them and have a happy dinner.. but why must he do this to me.. why must he destroy my day.. its a sunday.. every sunday is normally my best day,.. cos its a day.. when everyone is home.. a day when the 4 of us is at home.. why cant we jus have a happy dinner.. why is it so difficult.. mus we really have dinner seperately.. is this the way he really wan .. no doubts.. i am still crying now..