Chapter 87 ~ FRIENDS

I have been thinking about the definition of a friend since the previous blog. I rmb zhi han said that she was once worried for me, because she is afraid that i will be used by other people and i won't be able to protect myself becuz i dunno hw to reject people. i nv ever thought of why i have dis kind of mindset. then when i was showering, many thoughts popped into my mind.(i realise that when i am showering, my mind reflects abt wat i have done that particular day. i think i am a weirdo.. haha..)

i realise that:
-- i dunno hw to reject ppl bcuz i knw i can help them and they must really have needed help if not they wont approach other people.
-- i will give all the support i can give to people becuz i wan to let the know that they wont be alone
--i wont go mad but i will be veri sad if i realise that u have been using me, becuz.. 我付出的比对方多一倍，自然的，我的伤痛也会比对方多一倍，但是相对的，我的收获也会比对方多一倍，即使我好像比较吃亏。因为我是真心付出的！which means due to the fact that i put in more effort, of cuz i receive double the pain i get, however this also means that wat i gained is doubled of the other. though i may looked as if i lose out, but that's because its sincere.（edited from 爱情魔法师）
--it might appear that i dunno how to protect myself, but to me, i feel that its jus me.. i may be dumb and stoopid.. but i knw i wont lose out and i will am true to myself.